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idiosyncrasies of an average ingénue


It’s rushing beneath her skin.
Filling her breaths and making them heavy.
She can’t control it.
Wanting so much more she dives forth.
It gathers her in its embrace.
She needs him to be alongside.
Where is she being taken?
Why can’t she understand?
Doesn’t she know that it’s changing?
She gulps it down and swallows through the density.
He watches her, gazes with desire and fascination.
She is lost, swept forth, taken with it.
It gathers speed, billowing within her.
Flowing swiftly and with strength it moves her.
He runs with it, following her, wanting to seize her.
She can’t stop.
He doesn’t falter and eagerly persists.
It carries her fast, exploding inside and wrapping around.
Will she care?
Hasn’t she been there before?
It is familiar to her.
She studies it carefully, intently.
Noticing its frailties, she bends it.
It moves within her, aching, yearning.
She reaches for him, they clasp.
He cradles her whilst it lifts them.
It settles around them.
Filling them, they become unified.
Their lips touch.
It’s rushing beneath their skin.



Its all built up within. He hears from all around him and cannot decide. Tearing at him. Making him question what is good. What is right in front of him. There needs to be tolerance. The voice inside him rants and raves. It causes him to wonder if she’ll change.

She’s tried to keep her word. Steps taken to make a difference. Constantly being beaten down, struck down with expectations. Wondering if what she does is enough to satisfy, enough to please. She takes in all that she is told, all that they want her to do and be.

Much time spent. Though not enough for the one nor the other. Yet still he says more space. She says just wait.


Oh to see how much I want you.
If only you knew.

Oh to know how I admire you and love you.
If you could understand.

I want you to be there through the thick and thin. Through everything. Through the worst and best of times. I want you. I want you so much. Dare you not see how much  I need you. I love you.

I love you so much.

Everything I knew crumbled. There is a new path in my view. I don’t know where it will take me. I don’t know where I will be going in the next leap.

Cant you understand. I want. I want so much.

I don’t want anything to tear us apart.

There was a woman. She had been beaten. She loved. They took her love away from her. She wept and pleaded. They did not bring him back. She was left there to bleed out and cry herself dry. She was left to die. Left to live the excruciating pain of loss. Dread. Fear. Hate.


A magical twinkling of promises;
Deep blue fills the open void of sky.

Daunting awareness of sweet surrounding;
Calm hues of violet and orange lace the horizon.

Breezes of wonder permeate the sparkling air;
Golden light streams through the mantle of cloud.

Knowledge is set in twilight;
Enchanting greens and soft dew coat the landscape.